YAY October

Yes, I can definitely say that the lumps are smaller today.   I try not to check on them daily so a difference will be more noticable. 

I've cut back to just two batches of pills a day.  Still the same number, but two batches instead of three.  If I get busy in the afternoons I don't take them and was missing some.  So two times a day works better.  I ran out of shark cartilage about a week ago.  Will hold off on refilling that one and maybe use it as an alternate later.

Need to start working on a life time regimen to do once these lumps are gone so they don't come back.

Woot Woot

Doing just fine day by day

Other than making my feet and legs sore with Irish Dancing on Monday evenings, I'm actually feeling pretty good every day.  I have tweeks and aches and pains here and there, but with all the tumor detoxing I'm doing, I'm sure I'm detoxing lots of other crap too.

I coined a new term today... OTBF...  hummmmmm what could that possibly mean?  Old Timer's Brain Fart.   hahahahaahah

Attracting health

The Law of Attaction is about the easy flow downstream in the river of life, not resisting and just allowing good things to come into your life.  Always look for 'relief thoughts' to allow the flow of good into your life.  So you are not paddling upriver against the stream, resisting and scaring away the good stuff; like money, health, relationships, happiness.

You must change your negative beliefs, to ones of ease and flow .  Well how do you do that?

Thoughts repeatly thought, become a belief.  Then you go about finding 'proof' to reinforce your belief and the story you tell yourself.

So I put out a desperate desire to be healthy.  But this does not jive with my current belief about my state of health.  If it does not jive, I am paddling upriver against the stream.

-I want a healthy body that is in tip top shape. 

My current repeated statements in my head are that "I have the Big C, I have lumps, I am a little overweight, and not as active as I would like and I don't eat right.  I don't have any control because everything I do does not work and I'm lazy".  This does not feel good to me when I look at this current preceived belief of bad health and non-control.  It makes me feel really bad, (angry, depressed, worried, etc.)

So lets try and change the thoughts to something that I can agree with that will change my belief.  If  I can't agree with them, I am just sagotaging myself because I will just laugh at it and throw away the whole process.  I must be able to agree. 

-I want a healthy body that is in tip top shape.

"Everyday, there are many things that I can do that I have total control over that will ease my current less healthy state and feelings of less control, and improve both."  This feels better to me and is something I can concentrate on by repeating over and over, because it makes sense, I see it in my actions, I am doing it, and I can agree with it.

Now, to reinforce this feeling better, and move me to feeling good,  I need to add some 'proof' thoughts that I can agree with.

-I want a healthy body that is in tip top shape.

"My health is actually pretty darn good, considering.  Yes, I have lumps but they are slowly going away.  As I am doing things to reduce my lumps, I am also slowly losing weight, and have in fact lost 10 pounds in the past three months and it is staying off.  As I am doing things to reduce my lumps, I am cleansing my system and in fact I do have to run up and down the stairs or up and down the halls frequently during the day and am getting exercise, because my water intact is prolly 4 times more than normal."  This with the above statement about things being in my total control, actually makes me feel pretty good.  And I can agree with each statement.

These new statements pull me out of fear, out of worry, and out of depression, and I can see how things are going to get better day by day.  This puts me in a felling of 'relief' which turns the boat around in the river and now I am flowing downriver with the stream, and allowing good things to come.

This is how the law of attraction is supposed to work, according to my understanding of it.

It is very important that you always feel good, all day long, every day,  in your thoughts and ruminations, and internal agreements.  That you make statements of relief to yourself, for 67 continuous seconds at a time.  Even if it is repeating the same thing for those 67 seconds. Then the shift happens and you are flowing in the right direction.

So, There are many things I can do everyday that I have total control over to bring ease into my live and to return me to optimal health.  One of them is feeling good about turning down donuts!!! YAY!!

Just Chill

Went back thru my calendar and discovered that even tho I had my initial physical exam appointment in January, I put off all the tests until mid February and did not have a confirmed biopsy until May 1. 

I started taking herbs, etc. to halt the progression the first part of may, tumeric only, then Hanna's herbs about May 15th.  Hanna's herbs did the most work as it detoxed a lot of fungus' out of my system.

So, all in all, I've only been working on this herbally since May 15th or so, with a vengence. 

I had the large comprehensive blood work done on June 23, to see if it would be okay to take the Artemesinin and it all came back normal, including the CA-15 test.

Around June 25th I started with the Artemesinin and on July 8th I started with the large quantity of herbs and vitamins adding Iodine on July 14th.

Here is the first part of Sep. So, it's only been about 3 1/2 months that I've been working on the shrinkage and curing.  Takes awhile to make a cured ham, so why should I be any different?  heehee

Just Chill already!!

Ester Hicks - Law of Attraction lady posted this today...

Because others cannot vibrate in your experience, they cannot affect the outcome of your experience. They can hold their opinions, but unless their opinion affects your opinion, their opinion matters not at all. A million people could be pushing against you and it would not negatively affect you unless you push back. That million people pushing against you are affecting their millions of vibrations. They are affecting what happens in their experience. They are affecting their point of attraction, but it does not affect you unless you push against them. -Abraham

Stuff does not effect me unless I push against them; by refuting their opinion, arguing, accepting, disagreeing, worrying about what they said, stewing, getting angry, or WHATEVER!!!  Just say, okay and let it flow on by....  must practice practice practice...

Just another day

So, got some mushroom based immune capsules from the Chiropractor and more vitamins.  He said that he resolved his pneumonia with the mushrooms and good food.  They are just more herbs and I have no issues with mushrooms, so I will take those along with the other stuff.  After taking them last evening, along with the vitamins, I felt better physically, in a couple of hours.

I hate waking up in the middle of the night with aches and pains, especially gut pains or arm pains.  The fear sets in and "on my god it's spreading or perforating" and I get in a tizzy and can't sleep.  The mind is so out of control in the dark during the night.  Sunlight makes things look much more realistic.

So, lately just got backed up in the plumbing and I'm feeling fine today.  Geebus (as the kid says).

I watched "The Secret" again last night and it did help change my frame of mind.  I will try to watch it once a week or so, to keep me more positive, because I am getting better, every day.  I also need to find my "what the bleep do we know" movie and watch that too.  Think my kid has it stashed in his stuff some where.

Looking forward to the weekend.  Doing fun stuff and that will help keep me up!!

Tickly

My lumps are stable, not getting any bigger and very imperceptibly getting smaller.  I think I have a caliper measurer.  I'm going to see if I can measure it.  Should have done that 4 months ago. heehee

I have an appendix thing going on as well.  A pollup growing into the appendix, so they want to surgically remove it before it perforates. 

I've been warding that off as well, altho today I am having some funny tickly sensations in that area.   It's not painful, just feels weird like someone is tickling on the inside. Hope it's just gas, so we'll see if goes away or gets worse, or what.  It's been just since about 10 this morning.  Ain't gone to the bathroom today either, so hopefully it's just plumbing issues.

I also weed whacked the front yard yesterday evening as well.  So, I'm all sore in the arm pits and such.  Think I'll drink lots of mover teas and just chill this evening.  Altho, that gets old sometimes too.

Film at 11.