YAY October

Yes, I can definitely say that the lumps are smaller today.   I try not to check on them daily so a difference will be more noticable. 

I've cut back to just two batches of pills a day.  Still the same number, but two batches instead of three.  If I get busy in the afternoons I don't take them and was missing some.  So two times a day works better.  I ran out of shark cartilage about a week ago.  Will hold off on refilling that one and maybe use it as an alternate later.

Need to start working on a life time regimen to do once these lumps are gone so they don't come back.

Woot Woot

Doing just fine day by day

Other than making my feet and legs sore with Irish Dancing on Monday evenings, I'm actually feeling pretty good every day.  I have tweeks and aches and pains here and there, but with all the tumor detoxing I'm doing, I'm sure I'm detoxing lots of other crap too.

I coined a new term today... OTBF...  hummmmmm what could that possibly mean?  Old Timer's Brain Fart.   hahahahaahah

Attracting health

The Law of Attaction is about the easy flow downstream in the river of life, not resisting and just allowing good things to come into your life.  Always look for 'relief thoughts' to allow the flow of good into your life.  So you are not paddling upriver against the stream, resisting and scaring away the good stuff; like money, health, relationships, happiness.

You must change your negative beliefs, to ones of ease and flow .  Well how do you do that?

Thoughts repeatly thought, become a belief.  Then you go about finding 'proof' to reinforce your belief and the story you tell yourself.

So I put out a desperate desire to be healthy.  But this does not jive with my current belief about my state of health.  If it does not jive, I am paddling upriver against the stream.

-I want a healthy body that is in tip top shape. 

My current repeated statements in my head are that "I have the Big C, I have lumps, I am a little overweight, and not as active as I would like and I don't eat right.  I don't have any control because everything I do does not work and I'm lazy".  This does not feel good to me when I look at this current preceived belief of bad health and non-control.  It makes me feel really bad, (angry, depressed, worried, etc.)

So lets try and change the thoughts to something that I can agree with that will change my belief.  If  I can't agree with them, I am just sagotaging myself because I will just laugh at it and throw away the whole process.  I must be able to agree. 

-I want a healthy body that is in tip top shape.

"Everyday, there are many things that I can do that I have total control over that will ease my current less healthy state and feelings of less control, and improve both."  This feels better to me and is something I can concentrate on by repeating over and over, because it makes sense, I see it in my actions, I am doing it, and I can agree with it.

Now, to reinforce this feeling better, and move me to feeling good,  I need to add some 'proof' thoughts that I can agree with.

-I want a healthy body that is in tip top shape.

"My health is actually pretty darn good, considering.  Yes, I have lumps but they are slowly going away.  As I am doing things to reduce my lumps, I am also slowly losing weight, and have in fact lost 10 pounds in the past three months and it is staying off.  As I am doing things to reduce my lumps, I am cleansing my system and in fact I do have to run up and down the stairs or up and down the halls frequently during the day and am getting exercise, because my water intact is prolly 4 times more than normal."  This with the above statement about things being in my total control, actually makes me feel pretty good.  And I can agree with each statement.

These new statements pull me out of fear, out of worry, and out of depression, and I can see how things are going to get better day by day.  This puts me in a felling of 'relief' which turns the boat around in the river and now I am flowing downriver with the stream, and allowing good things to come.

This is how the law of attraction is supposed to work, according to my understanding of it.

It is very important that you always feel good, all day long, every day,  in your thoughts and ruminations, and internal agreements.  That you make statements of relief to yourself, for 67 continuous seconds at a time.  Even if it is repeating the same thing for those 67 seconds. Then the shift happens and you are flowing in the right direction.

So, There are many things I can do everyday that I have total control over to bring ease into my live and to return me to optimal health.  One of them is feeling good about turning down donuts!!! YAY!!

Just Chill

Went back thru my calendar and discovered that even tho I had my initial physical exam appointment in January, I put off all the tests until mid February and did not have a confirmed biopsy until May 1. 

I started taking herbs, etc. to halt the progression the first part of may, tumeric only, then Hanna's herbs about May 15th.  Hanna's herbs did the most work as it detoxed a lot of fungus' out of my system.

So, all in all, I've only been working on this herbally since May 15th or so, with a vengence. 

I had the large comprehensive blood work done on June 23, to see if it would be okay to take the Artemesinin and it all came back normal, including the CA-15 test.

Around June 25th I started with the Artemesinin and on July 8th I started with the large quantity of herbs and vitamins adding Iodine on July 14th.

Here is the first part of Sep. So, it's only been about 3 1/2 months that I've been working on the shrinkage and curing.  Takes awhile to make a cured ham, so why should I be any different?  heehee

Just Chill already!!

Ester Hicks - Law of Attraction lady posted this today...

Because others cannot vibrate in your experience, they cannot affect the outcome of your experience. They can hold their opinions, but unless their opinion affects your opinion, their opinion matters not at all. A million people could be pushing against you and it would not negatively affect you unless you push back. That million people pushing against you are affecting their millions of vibrations. They are affecting what happens in their experience. They are affecting their point of attraction, but it does not affect you unless you push against them. -Abraham

Stuff does not effect me unless I push against them; by refuting their opinion, arguing, accepting, disagreeing, worrying about what they said, stewing, getting angry, or WHATEVER!!!  Just say, okay and let it flow on by....  must practice practice practice...

Just another day

So, got some mushroom based immune capsules from the Chiropractor and more vitamins.  He said that he resolved his pneumonia with the mushrooms and good food.  They are just more herbs and I have no issues with mushrooms, so I will take those along with the other stuff.  After taking them last evening, along with the vitamins, I felt better physically, in a couple of hours.

I hate waking up in the middle of the night with aches and pains, especially gut pains or arm pains.  The fear sets in and "on my god it's spreading or perforating" and I get in a tizzy and can't sleep.  The mind is so out of control in the dark during the night.  Sunlight makes things look much more realistic.

So, lately just got backed up in the plumbing and I'm feeling fine today.  Geebus (as the kid says).

I watched "The Secret" again last night and it did help change my frame of mind.  I will try to watch it once a week or so, to keep me more positive, because I am getting better, every day.  I also need to find my "what the bleep do we know" movie and watch that too.  Think my kid has it stashed in his stuff some where.

Looking forward to the weekend.  Doing fun stuff and that will help keep me up!!

Tickly

My lumps are stable, not getting any bigger and very imperceptibly getting smaller.  I think I have a caliper measurer.  I'm going to see if I can measure it.  Should have done that 4 months ago. heehee

I have an appendix thing going on as well.  A pollup growing into the appendix, so they want to surgically remove it before it perforates. 

I've been warding that off as well, altho today I am having some funny tickly sensations in that area.   It's not painful, just feels weird like someone is tickling on the inside. Hope it's just gas, so we'll see if goes away or gets worse, or what.  It's been just since about 10 this morning.  Ain't gone to the bathroom today either, so hopefully it's just plumbing issues.

I also weed whacked the front yard yesterday evening as well.  So, I'm all sore in the arm pits and such.  Think I'll drink lots of mover teas and just chill this evening.  Altho, that gets old sometimes too.

Film at 11.

Something to look forward to...

I have a great deal of difficulty everyday as I have nothing to inspire me or look forward to.

So, today I booked an Alaskan Cruise for next July 3-10.  It features 12 hours of seminars by Ester Hicks, the Law of Attraction guru.  Has 3-4 ports in Alaska and starts/stops in Seattle.  Something to look forward too!!!  I hope it's not all women and married couples.  Maybe I'll meet someone, that would be fun!!

My USA bucket list will be full after this cruise.  I will have visited all 50 US states. 

After this, I will plan on Nova Scotia and that area and maybe Iceland in a few years.  A Volcano tour would be awesome.  Also another cruise in the Caribbean to visit all the islands would be fun too. 

For now, just planning the cruise will be fun.

How you do that?

Applied Kinesiology or Muscle Testing, to determine if something is good or bad for you, and at what level, and for how long.  This is how I am determining what to do and for how long.  Quackery?  Maybe. But it works for me so I'm using it.

I dropped some of the items because I was getting too much, no longer needed that dose, or it was not making any difference one way or the other.

I have traded Tumeric 3 times a day for a different solution.  Honey and Tumeric one day and Honey and Ginger the next day, then continue to alternate them.

My regimen is now 3-4 tumor shrinkers and 3-4 preventatives to stop the spreading.  I will stick with this for another month or two making adjustments if I don't feel right.

Changes

Re-evaluated my pills.
Stopped Beta Glucan and Selenium
Reduced Iodine to 1 a day
Stopped A and Tumeric 3 times a day
Will get a good multivitamin

Can ya OD on water? Geebus!!

They say you should drink half your weight in ounces of water a day. 

I must go thru 3 glasses of water getting all these pills down, then another glass cuz something got stuck.  And that's 3 times a day!!!

Dang!!

No change No change No change

Most mornings lately, I wake up depressed.  My arm hurts and the fear sets in that this is spreading into the lymph system.  I get a little panicky.  Then I get up and get moving and things are back to the usual.  I would like the unusual once in awhile

I have talked to my chiropractor (he's an anatomy buff)  and done some investigating about the nerves in that area.  He agreed with me that the pain in the arm is the nerves being pressed on most of the night when I lay on my left side.  He also thinks that the healing is causing scar tissue to be laid down and that the scar tissue is getting stiff during the night.  Over time, that will go away when the healing is finally done.  Might be small patches of scar tissue, but they can be painful none the less.  Makes sense to me.  I'll add that to my story and stick to it.  As you know that your story is what becomes reality for you.

I have read several articles by several naturopaths and herbalogists that you should not eat meat and major protein after 2-4pm in the afternoon as the lymph system does not move while you are sleeping and the protein will just move into the bad cells instead of being moved thru the system by the lymph after digestion and transport to the various places in the body that it needs to go. (Wow, talk about a long run on sentence - hee hee).  Anyway, I have to eat some protein in the evenings, otherwise I starve to death by 10pm and can't sleep.   Tidbits I am learning along the way.

I still am inspired?, enthused, en-somethinged?, (not sure what the word would be), that usually within 10-30 minutes after I take my gaggle of pills 3 times a day, I get little pains in the lumps and around the lumps and sometimes, farther away from the lumps.  Tells me something is happening.  I'm thinking it is cell death in a major way and I envision the little tendrils dying off and pulling back into the lump, screaming OH NO... we're dying.  Thats also part of my story and I'm sticking to it.  Keeps me going day to day.

Ah well, time to get some work done.

Progress

I get out of the shower this morning and suffer a MAJOR pain in the big lump.  I start massageing it and it is not as hard, mushy and smaller. 

WOOHOO!!!  I think all these pills are finally working.  YAY!!  We'll see how it is in 24 hours.

So what am I doing today

First thing in the morning: Transfer Point Beta 1 3-D Glucan 1000mg.  This is a super immune booster.  I learned about this stuff back in 2011, just never tried it.  I need it now, so I'm taking it.

Morning:  Hanna's HPX, Blood Toner and FNG Care Herbs.
                 Turmeric w/Pepper, 10,000iu D3, 4000iu K, 1000mg C
                  Zinc, B-17 (illegal in the U.S), B-15 (illegal in the U.S, and it's still in the mail)
                  3 Artemisinin and Krill Oil


Lunch:  Hanna's HPX, Blood Toner and FNG Care Herbs.
             Turmeric w/Pepper, 10,000iu D3, 4000iu K, 1000mg C
             50mg iodine, Magnesium, Selenium, 25,000iu A
             750mg Shark Cartilage (didn't they just have an article on the news last night about
                             the benefits of eating Shark stuff cuz they are never sick.  Gee, go figure.


Evening:  Hanna's HPX, Blood Toner and FNG Care Herbs.
                 Turmeric or Ginger with Honey, 10,000iu D3, 4000iu K, 1000mg C
                  2 Artemisinin and Krill Oil
                  2 tsp Honey and 1 tsp ginger one day, then 2 tsp Honey and 1 tsp turmeric the next

Of the above, Turmeric, Artemisinin, Honey/ginger/turmeric, D3, and Shark Cartilage shrink tumors.  The other stuff is preventative, and aids in absorption.  Iodine deficiency alone is enough to cause breast cancer.

So, I have been doing the above for the past few days and will continue on until Oct 8th.  On Sep 8th, I will start reducing the Iodine so that by Nov I'm only taking 12.5mg a day, then will most likely do the Iodine and B-17 forever.

The B-15, is also called pangamic acid, and of course is illegal in the U.S in doses of 2000mg a day.  I am waiting for it to come from the Budwig Center in Spain, and hopefully it will be here next week. 

I have taken B-17, which is Laetrile or peach pits, back in 2011 and had no issues with it.  B-17 is in all seeds, is harmless and is nature's chemotherapy.

Prolly don't need to be taking ALL of theses protocols, but I'm impatient, pushy and just want it done with.  Besides, none of them are harmful and my research shows that they do not cause issues when mixed together.  They also will not counteract each other.  I will continue to research, and make note daily of how I am feeling and PAY ATTENTION.

So far I am feeling fine and usually about an hour or so after some of these I feel pains in my breasts and other parts of my body.  So I know I am riding myself for fungus and other harmful microbes that don't need to be there.

Overload

So I follow the newsletters from the Budwig Center in Spain.  They stated that you can do large does of Vitamin D as long as you take Vitamin K with it.  So, I tried it.  Lasted a week then started to get headaches, nausea and no appetite.

Backed off on that one.  Now just 30,000iu a day with 12,000iu of Vitamin K.

Hydrazine Sulfate

So, what kills most folks with cancer that is spreading is Cachexia.  What?

Cachexia is a cycle.  Cancer cells secrete lactic acid, which is converted into glucose in the liver.  Then the cancer cells consume the glucose, and secrete more and more glucose, and on and on and on.  This process severely weakens the immune system and just keeps getting worse and worse.  The issue is to get the body to dump the lactic acid.  Hydrazine sulfate gets the body to dump the lactic acid.  Nice!

Well, since Hydrazine Sulfate works great for weight loss and curing cancer, then of course it is outlawed in the United States.  http://www.hydrazinesulfate.org/  Everything that cures cancer is outlawed in the United States.  We only allow, cut, burn and poison to cure cancer.

So, I need this stuff.  I could buy it form someplace outside the U.S. which is what I am doing with some of my supplements, but this is starting to get expensive.

Reading Hanna Kroger's Cure Your Body of Tumor's and Cysts, she details that her HPX formula is an herbal substitute for Hydrazine Sulfate.  And, it's only about $14.  Ta Da... Problem solved.

In Hanna's book, she also talks about two supplements, Blood Toner and FNG Care, which she learned about from American Indians (in her opinion, the best herbalists on the planet, don't think she was familiar with China and India), that cured fungus' in the body.  She also stated that most breast tumors were a fungus.  Ta Da... again.  Each of these is about $14 and HELLO, she's in Boulder, just down the street practically.

In February I started adjusting my diet, no sugar, mostly veggies and fruits and little breads and Lavender Essential oils, vitamins, hypnosis and 3800mg of turmeric daily and occasionally the Johanna Budwig protocol which I had used before back in 2011.

From May 9th to June 23rd, I took Janna's 3 herbal supplements, and added Frankincense Essential oil.

On June 23rd my blood work was done including the CA-15 breast cancer test.  All the tests came back in the mid-range of normal and the tumors had shrunk by half of what they were.  The tumors are no longer mushy but are steadily getting smaller and harder like dried peas.

I also had a mental/psychological shift.  I am not dying, just have to manage this like I would diabetes or some other illness and just keep working to make it go away.

Sugar?

Oh and no sugar.  I have lost about 10 pounds in the last 3 months, just from not eating sugar. 

I walked past the bakery isle in the grocery store wondering what's that green stuff.  Oh it's some kind of cookie, and just kept walking.  It's funny how when something is life threatening, it doesn't tweek you anymore.  Yeah, I would like to have some ice cream and cookies, but, um... no thanks.  I'll wait as long as I can, until the lumpies are gone.

Protocols Smotocols which one to use

Read Hanna Kroger's book "Free your body of tumors and cysts".  Read books on Iodine deficiency.  Go to www.cancertutor.com and www.budwigcenter.com  and look at the protocols.  There's a ton of them.  Which ones to choose.

As soon as I read Hanna's book, and in the early spring I started on the following:
Tumeric, Blood Toner, FNG Care, Vitamins, and some other stuff and managed to make the lumps go from mushy to hard.  Also reduced them in size by half.  Tomorrow I will detail what I've been doing up until now.

MRI

So, I go to the MRI place.  They hook be up and stick me in the can and I freak out.  I'm telling myself, I can to this.  I can do this.  They hadn't even turned the machine on and I buzzed the buzzer and quit.  The gal was really nice and told me to go get some drugs and come back in a few days and try again.  What a whimp!!!

So I go get some drugs.  Some kind of Valium.  I go to the chiropractor right before and have my shoulders all rearranged as I have to hold my arms above my head for a half an hour, while laying on my stomach with my boobies dangling down so they can take images of them.  I take the Valium on the way home, and a friend comes to give me a ride.  By the time we get there, I'm getting loopy.

While I'm waiting I'm psyching myself into believing that I'll be laying on a tanning booth getting a tan while they are doing some construction in the building next door.  The noise is going to be irritating from the construction, but I can just ignore it and enjoy my tan.  (The MRI machine sounds like one of those well drilling machines.  Dang it's LOUD!!)

So, they ask if I want to wear ear plugs.  HELL YES!!!

They put me in the can and turn on music.  I asked for County Music cuz it's easy to listen to.  And guess what? It worked!!! I was actually able to sit thru the whole thing without freaking out.  I just counted the songs until they were done.

And, they say there are 3 lumps.  Or something that looks like maybe a mass between the original two. Lovely.  Damned if I can find it.

Medical Checkups

So, it's time now to check out the new lump.  So, mamo, ultra sound, and a biopsy.  And of course the xray reader doc was a real bitch and came storming out and said.  We believe your cancer is back and you have to have a biopsy now!!!  I told her, no thanks and left.  Scheduled the biopsy for the following week or two or three.  If she was 30, I'm surprised.  How unprofessional.

I will never do a biopsy again, ever.  God that was painful.

And of course it is cancer.  And there is a second lump by my armpit. Damn!!!

So, the same surgeon wants to do surgery and I'ma dragging my ass on it.  So she suggests an MRI...

Meantime, I'm starting on all kinds of stuff that I did before and plenty of new stuff.

Between then and now

I agreed to have mamograms on the left side twice a year for two years, and on the right side once a year for those two years.  Lessee, Jan 2012, clear, Oct 2012, clear.  I don't think I went in at all in 2013.  

The rest of 2011 and half of 2012, I did lots of alkaline type diet and got my health back for the most part.

May 2011, daughter and I took a road trip to take some furniture to a friend in North Carolina.  We went via I-36 to the 'geographical center of the united states'.  The first time I had been there was on that road trip to visit a friend in Missouri the year before.  Then we popped down to Kansas City and spent the night in a real pit of a motel.  They did not even give us regular towels.  All we had were hand towels.  We were both so tired we didn't care.  The next morning we scouted out were we were in this part of town.  Spooky!! Then we went on down to NC and spent a couple nights with my girlfriend.  Then on to Virginia Beach so we could visit old friends.  Then on the way back, we popped down to I-20 so we could drive thru Louisiana.  This was the last state in the lower 48 that I had not been in.  Then on thru Texas and back home.

Then the surgery.

January 2012, I went to Hawaii with my sister-in-law.  Had an awesome time and spent way too much money.  But hey, it was a once in a life time trip.  Loved it.  Now the only state I have left to visit is Alaska.

Summer 2012 we had the fires in Waldo Canyon and Manitou got evacuated.

June 2012, I and two friends opened a junk shop and tried to make a go of that for about a year.

November 2012, hey I'm eligible to retire.  You think I can.  Hell no!  I just bought a house.  Sometimes I think buying the house was a dumb idea.

March 2013 I and a girlfriend drove to Detroit so she could see her son get graduated with a PHD in music. That was a really fun trip.  It was during this time that I noticed a mush on the corner of my left breast where the internal incision was, on the breast bone side.  I told myself it was scar tissue and ignored it.  It steadily got bigger.

Summer of 2013 the Black Forest Fire hit and summer was no fun at all.  The junk shop did not pan out so we closed it in August.

January 2014, time for medical checkups.

Surgery Time

I stopped the MMS a week prior to the surgery.

My kids went along for the ride.  We were supposed to be there at 7:30.  The hospital starts calling at 6:30 wanting to know where the hell we were as we were late.  I flipped and chewed some butt 'cuz the surgeon's office never called to let me know to be there at 6:30.  They said, get here quick.  Impossible.  The horsepistal was on the other side of town, easily a 45 minute drive.  My son made it in 30 minutes (he's a cabby after all).

I'm getting prepped and they're asking all kinda silly questions.  Nurse asks if I have anything in my mouth, so I stuck my tongue out at her.  Or some such nonsense.  Had to make light of it.  This is the one and only time I have ever had surgery of any kind in my life.  SCAREY!!! AND, I might be boobless on one side too boot.

I had told her that I was going to do 'balloon radiation' after the surgery.  So she put 4 pins in to note the margins of the tissue she removed.  She ended up taking out a one inch think stack of business cards sized blob of tissue.

Actually, she got clear margins, and no cancer in the lymph.  No radiation for me. HA!!

I healed up nicely, although with a huge dent on one side, and got on with my life.

July 2011 I elected to have surgery, so more tests

Surgery was scheduled for August 4.

So I had this radioactive seed test thingy done.  They put these radioactive seeds in the breast tissue, close to the arm pit.  My lump was on the left side below the nipple.  Then I had to sit for about an hour to let the radiation start moving into the lymph system.  Then I sat under a scope and they took x-rays.  They were looking for the "sentinel nodes" in that part of the lymph system.  During surgery to remove the lump, my gal surgeon was also going to remove two sentinel nodes and have them biopsied to see if the cancer had moved into the lymph system.  Really interesting test, not too painful.  And... don't need to ever do that again.

A funny thing happened on the way back from lunch - July 2011

So, I'm taking the MMS to kill the cancer bugs, building up to 3 drops 8 times a day.  I was somewhere in the process and hit a wall of pathogens that my system could not deal with.

The MMS works like an ocean wave.  You take a few drops and it goes just so far into your system killing pathogens.  Then you take another dose and it is like the wave coming in again, as the tide is rising, and it goes a little further into the system killing more pathogens.  When you are sick, at some point, it will hit the cliffs and overload your system trying to kill the pathogens, and you end up with diarrhea and severe nausea. So, you back off on the dose until you are stable, then start increasing it again.

Well, one day, coming back from lunch, you guessed it!  I crapped my pants.  AND on top of it, my jeans were WHITE!!!!  Lovely.  Fortunately, I had a jacket which I wrapped around my ass, headed into the building, went straight for the bathroom and made a real mess.  I emailed my co-worker on my ithingy to have one of the gals bring me my purse and car keys and went home and took a shower.  Yes, I went back to work.  Cuz, other than the fiasco, I felt fine.

Back to June 2011 - Hummmm. What to do?

So, I went and talked to a really sweet gal who is a really excellent breast surgeon.  She explained everything to me, what all my options were and recommended some other doctors I needed to go talk to and get set up for chemo, radiation and drugs. You know, standard fair.  Surgery and treatment depends on if it moved into the lymph nodes.

I went and talked to a radiologist.  He was from India and a real jerk; insisted that if I did not have radiation I was going to die.  He's from India for Christ's sake.  He should know about aruvedic medicine. Left that office and never looked back.

I went and talked to an oncologist.  He insisted that if I did not take the tamoxifan drugs that I would die within a few years as the cancer would come back.  I said no thanks, left and never looked back.

I went and talked to a plastic surgeon about reconstruction, just in case.  He was very nice, old school and did a wonderful job of explaining options.  I did learn that, some Congress Women and Women Senators got laws passed so that for the rest of my life I can have plastic surgery on both sides to make them match and insurance had to cover it.  Good to know.

Talked to a really nice medical professional who turned me on to some natural medicine cures, Chaga mushrooms and MMS.  I purchased both and started using them immediately and I started
researching.

I just re-read all my posts

There's a lot of stuff I posted.  he he.

Yep, I'm still doing Irish Dancing, not as vigorously tho.  Have not done belly dancing in over a year.  Hope to get back to it one day tho.  I'm still slaving at the same job.

'Member the vaxes I talked about?  The refrigerator sized ones?  Well they finally went out the door a few weeks ago to the dump in Denver.  We are not off VMS tho, just moved it to a VM machine.  As the son put it, we crammed 3 refrigerators into a microwave.  Pretty accurate actually.  We still have a microvax named SMAUG, named after the dragon in the Hobbit.  Smaug crashed last week.  My daughter's comment was "nasty hobbitses".

She and I gained all the weight back and are on another 'lose it' trek.  Cycles and cycles, and repeats and repeats.  Keeps us busy...

So, rewind to June 2011

Found a lump while showering several months earlier, had been watching it and decided to find out what it was.  I knew in my gut it was cancer.

For the past 20 years I had been suffering from sebaceous type cysts.  Had the cysts aspirated 3 times over the years.  I think this all stems from falling asleep on the floor on my stomach, and my left breast was soooo asleep that it was actually flat and hurt like hell when I woke up. Took it several hours for it to loosen back up and quit hurting.  This was about 1986 ish time frame.  Anyway, went in for a mamogram, ultra sound and biopsy and yes it was cancer.